Last night I attended the second Filmmaker’s Guild meeting of the semester at Oakland University. At first I was skeptical of attending and even the point of the guild because although I had continued to work on the script I started last month, no one had commented on it, edited it, or anything else but me. So I began to doubt having any association with them while my grades continued to slip.
Well, I can’t say my grades can or will improve overnight or otherwise but I’m feeling good again about the guild. Last night, the guild president, Greg, put me on the spot to explain the script stating he really liked it. So I did briefly, and got a very strong positive response.
I don’t want to use anyone for any reason, especially not an ego boost, but I have to admit it felt good. The problem with being an introvert like myself is that it’s far too easy to doubt yourself, and self-esteem is much more difficult to build up than tear down.
Still, this is a step in the right direction. So today, despite all the work I have to do for school, I feel good.